Japanese Matrix

Japanese people are genius. =) I know that Japanese have like committed lots of crimes during WWII but I really admire them in terms of their contribution to world's science and technology. Watching at one of the videos in Youtube, I guess you will agree that they really are creative people. Funny but intelligent.

Ikaw ang Pangarap (LOBO OST)

I'm not a couch potato type but you may have watched any of the episodes of Lobo if you are watching local television channels.

I fell in love with the official sound track. Perhaps because I like singer. :) Martin is such a great singer. He is such a living legacy. hehehe. Well, I hope you appreciate the video. Here it is.

The World Needs Map: Miss Carolina 2007 (Miss Teen USA Pageant)

Perhaps, Bb. Pilipinas World Janina San Miguel and all other beauty queens who have suffered stage fright syndrome during the pageant's Q&A portion are not alone after watching how Miss Carolina 2007 answered the question during the Miss Teen USA Q&A portion.

I must agree, the world needs Map. =) She is beautiful in all fairness to her. Hehe

Hospital Nightmare

I wrote this down a few weeks back and forgot to actually post it in my blog...I decided to put it coz it made me laugh reading some lines though. :) The hardcore drama is over...Now its for some serious action. LOL.

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I am sorry for not being able to write an update for the past few days. My mom has been hospitalized and admitted to ICU due to massive lung bleeding which was caused by her noxious smoking habit. She was admitted Sunday evening when I was at work. I was asked to go home that night and go directly at the emergency room in a local hospital in order to see my mom personally. I never expected that she was in a very serious condition, where all nurses are around her, some pumping oxygen to her lungs and others had to suction the blood from her airways.

I was literally crying and screaming in fear that she will leave us that night. I cannot explain the feeling and all I can remember is that, I have been telling her how much I love her and telling her that I will never leave no matter what and that she needs to gather all her strength to fight for life and 'breathe' for us. I am actually crying while I am writing this entry for I saw my mom "died" and revived after a few seconds after she was administered with arthro (I think that's what they call it; the liquid that helps the heart to stay a regular heartbeat).

The doctor who was attending her by then already jumped into the conclusion that my mom's brain had already been damaged because of what happened and that we still have yet to see the depth of the damage later on if she will ever survive. I cannot forget the face of that doctor for he didn't even show any compassion while nurses are working that night to stabilize my mom and asked me if I will pay in cash or if I have an insurance! I told him that I have an insurance and I saw that face! You know that face? The face when you are indifferent of something and you just don't care about something? I feel like getting a knife and slit his throat for his action.

Nevertheless, I kept my cool for I know that they are working for my mom's safety. But I never saw him budge though. I was thinking that nurses knew what they were doing. All the (that doctor) did was to sit in a corner and review some files. That was in fact the second hospital (from Angeles University Foundation Medical Center to St. Raphael Foundation and Medication Center) that we went to that night for they have to send her from one hospital to another for some reason. I can no longer recall for I was so confused, full of fear, and occupied.

Perhaps I am just becoming judgmental for I think that a lot of doctors nowadays are just losing "it". I mean, losing that sense of compassion towards their patients and all they are concerned about is money. They wouldn't even budge without it. Well, I mean, I know that everybody needs it, but look at the number of government hospitals who are loaded with patient complaints and their relatives where patients are left in death bed because they don't receive that proper medical attention they need. Just look at Ospital ning Angeles (Angeles City Hospital, Pampanga, Philippines) alone. What is happening to our country? The government should look into the welfare of the community and not entertain stupid issues where the prime concern is about kickbacks. What a waste. People are paying for taxes for nothing. Konti nalang talaga ang mga me malasakit sa mundo.

Gloomy Days

This was a scenery up at the ICU Waiting Room back when my mom was under close monitoring by the nurses and doctors. I just thought that it's beautiful so I captured the moment using my cellphone (which i am planning to sell now due to that huge hospital bills! =)

The St. Raphael Church tower can be seen if you will click on the pictures. I always prayed just by looking at the church down there. Its really miraculous. This has renewed my commitment to my faith.

Life is always difficult and dark, but God is always there to guide us by giving his guiding Light. Have a good day. =)

A New Beginning: Happy Mother's Day

I am happy that my mom is recuperating from her condition although my mom experiences periodic difficulty in breathing because the left lung was considerably damaged due to that trauma. But I am happy that God still gave us another chance to be with our mom. This seems to be a never-ending battle for our family and my mom but we will be better this time. =) Surely, we will take care of her until our last breath.

Just when you thought that you're healthy, comes this disease that kills you in a heartbeat. You just don't know when will be your last breath really. Its very important to appreciate and express the love you have with your family and tell them how much they mean to you and how they have shaped you to become a better person. You see, its just so painful to see your parents suffering and almost dying and they can't even hear you telling them how much you love them. Shall we wait for that "right time" until they are gone? Tell them now...Tell them you love them...Happy Mother's Day...

Thank God!

Thank you for praying for my mom...She's getting OK. :) I was surprised to learn that they just removed her respirator last night and she is now breathing pretty well with an oxygen support but her medication still continues.

I now can see a big progress on her health now and am praying that she will recover that fast although I dunno how I will be able to recover fast from debts. =) But at least I'm happy that my mom is getting OK although I really cannot buy some of her medications which costs around PhP 4,700/2g via (Cepimax by Bristol-Myerrs Squibb). I just wonder why that medicine is sooooo expensive! No one will ever able to buy that especially if the patient is poor (like us). I mean, you know how much a regular Filipino employee gets per day and thinking that medicines are that expensive I am wondering how many poor patients have died because of how much these types of medicines are sold in the market.

Perhaps I am just becoming bitter here but I must say that I understand why pharmaceutical companies command such prices in the market since they spend a lot in research in order to produce such drugs not to mention its manufacturing costs associated wiith the production of medicines but, at least, I think each of the world's government and International policy markers should start giving this issue a second thought and help drive the medicine prices down and create a plan that will help both consumers and pharmaceutical companies.

I am happy and I would like to thank everybody who offered prayers and financial support for my mom. She's been admitted in ICU since April 21 and still yet to recover more from what happened to her. God has given me another chance to prove how much I love her and that I will always be there for her no matter what...Thank you, Lord. I know I've been away for so long...Sorry...

God is great! =)

Thank you so much.

I Love You Mom...

God has been good to all of us because mom is still holding on. Its just that, we are really running out of budget. I just can't seem to figure out how to work on it: going here and there asking for money and all that. I now also have come to a point where I need to ask for my co-workers' help because I can no longer buy my mom's medicine. I was able to maintain her medicine (which usually costs around PhP 4,000 - PhP 5,000 a day.) for like 5 to 6 days and now I am running out of budget again.

I had to literally tell the nurses at the ICU that I can no longer buy my mom the antibiotic Cepimax which costs around PhP 4,700 per vial/2g. I was crying while explaining why I had to say "not at this time." Its like telling them that I am giving up.

Doctors had to change her antibiotics since they thought that the bacteria in her body are no longer responding to Vicosid. Just this morning, I had to buy med supplies which costs me around PhP 7,000 and all of the money is my pocket are gone...I am really sorry I had to tell you all these...I am really sorry...My friends helped me out, my coworkers, too, my relatives yes...I just don't know when this will end. I was kissing my mom's cheeks and head and was telling her how much I love her. I also taught her how to meditate and repeatedly trying to remind her to pray. I love you mom...I love you mom...

I just can't stop telling my mom how much I love her...I just can't stop...